Journey Page 7

Journey Page 7

 
October 10, 2015
Today I am reminded that one year ago, God blessed my wonderful James and I with our dream vacation (that being time well spent with family). We had the most wonderful time in Georgia with our oldest son Rick and his family. It could not have been more perfect.

The peace, the opportunities to be still to just be"... The Love....
God knew I would need this memory and precious it is.
Thank you to my Rick, Jennifer, MB, AB and Sarah for making one of Papa's last weeks on earth amazing.
I love you all so much....


October 17, 2015
I just don't know...it's been almost a year now and instead of missing my James, less, I am only missing him more.
I don't fit in anymore... I miss James... Help me Lord...

October 24, 2015
My heart is anxious today.. I know the one year mark is coming soon. It's just about all I ever think about.
Help me Lord; hold me close... please keep me from myself... help me through this...
I need You Lord....

November 2, 2015

This was in my devotion for this morning..
"When was the last time you let someone carry you? When was the last time you were worn out? Maybe you were not physically exhausted, but emotionally or spiritually, and you allowed another person to be strong for you. Maybe you need to do so now."
I love how God speaks to me, even in my darkest moments...

November 4, 2015
Grief has a way of hanging around. Last night my sweet friend Susan went Home with Jesus. She was doing so well...did not see that coming....
Father, be with those who must tend to the details of her life and death. Protect Trevor, Travis and Trent as they face a future without their mom.. Give them strength and peace...
Help me to help them..
In Jesus' Name....

November 6, 2015 Friday
Today we lay to rest and say our final earthly good-bye to the body that housed the soul of me friend Susan.
So much  has been and can still be said about Susan...all true.. Her capacity for love and forgiveness goes beyond any I could hope for.
Always a smile....Always a hug....Always a prayer.... Always love.... Always Susan!
Thank you dear friend for including me...You will be missed....

Monday, November 9, 2015
So, here we are- One year ago today my life changed forever. Here are my thoughts:
Today is the one year anniversary of James's departure (actually it is tomorrow the 10th, but today is Monday and it was  a Monday one year ago today).
I'm doing well, and I praise God for all I have learned, how I have grown both spiritually and emotionally.  Most importantly is the fact that He has held me and guided me through this journey.. God IS  Good!

Instead of being bitter, I have chosen to be blessed...
Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I have chosen to find joy.
As I hold dear the memories of this amazing man with whom I shared 35 years of love, I have chosen to remember the crazy, funny yet serious man that captured my heart.
Today I don't love him any less and I seem to miss him even more.

However...
God has taught me that I can continue in this life's journey and that I am not alone; not now, nor will I ever be.
My husband held my heart, but God holds my soul...
I am doubly blessed..

"See Ya At The House Honey"!

The Lord Bless You and Keep You
The Lord make His face to shine upon you and be gracious to you
The Lord lift up His countenance upon you and give you peace.
Numbers 6:24-26
 
RANDOM MEMORIES...
When James surrendered to the ministry, he kissed me before waling to the front of the church to make his decision public. It was at that moment, as I watched him walk away, that ai realized , "he's not mine anymore."....
On the afternoon of November 10th, 2014, we kissed and hugged each other...then i watched him as he headed out to mow around the pond...
At that time I didn't know that was to be our final "good-bye".
He was never mine; he always belonged to God. Oh, but how blessed I have been to be able to share my life with such a man....
Thank you God....
 
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Journey Year Two is filled with how God's amazing grace sustained me. I am  posting these as well for your encounragement that God does have a plan, even in our deepest grief...
 
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